Bevys_LOST's Xanga

damn it's changed

Thu, 14 Dec 2006 05:36:52 GMT

damn xanga has changed a whole lot. so i hae definitely moved onto myspace and facebook. i might end up deleting my xanga, who knows. i do remember spending hours designing stuff and looking at a shit load of icons. man... thinkin about all the time i wasted on here makes me not want to delete this, haha

so it's been 4 months

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 04:02:49 GMT

i actually thought it has been longer than 4 months since i last blogged... things change and well i've moved on to myspace (since along time ago) and now it's face book. freshmen and sophomore year, i was all about xanga, then myspace became the high school thing. and facebook has been the college thing. and well i start wku the 28th and i can't wait! anyways... yeah haha just making a short update.

it just wasn't my day...

Tue, 11 Apr 2006 00:59:57 GMT

so today was the first say back from spring break. it was cool to see everyone back. kinda funny to see everyone dark and burned. haha jk. people were talking about sun poisoning (gettin blisters but not from gettin burned so bad) i'll probably look that up in a bit. but anyways... my day was pretty good at first. seeing steven burnt to a crisp, anna and lisa puttin on lotion to keep from peeling lol... then third block came around which is the WORST class of the day especially with the fuckin sub teacher ms. hooten. *sigh* but anyways... then during 4th block rachel comes in and asks me "did u hear about the guy who got hit by a car and died?" i was like "what?" "some keith guy." the way she was saying kinda made me laugh but why would she kid about it. once she told me, i couldn't stop thinking about it. i drove home picked up bryan and went to taco bell. i was afraid to bring up the subject but it makes me sad. nemanja (asst. manager) watched it happen. he was there to see if he was alive. i feel bad for him because he has to live with the image... this happened at almost 9 pm and keith died at 3:30 am... i worked with keith. ok maybe not very much. he was nice. he usually takes over my spot when i leave so i can go home. he's a closer. but anyways... any thought of death just makes me feel depressed. but anyways... i don't think it was my day. i do get to open friday which is pretty cool. oh well...

random knowledge:
sun poisoning is an allergic reaction to the sun. it might be an allergic reaction from medication you are taking... but anyways that tells me, that i can still lay out!

quick update

Thu, 30 Mar 2006 11:46:00 GMT

it's gettin close to prom time... unfortunately, i don't have a date. which i'm ok with. the only person i'd really go with, is steven b/c he's a friend. i probably would not go with someone i don't really know even if my best friend found a date for me (if that makes sense) steven won't be going to prom but he will definitely be goin to parties. anyways... so i never really update anymore. i guess, its just myspace taking over since everyone now has a myspace. well... this was short but anyways spring break is next week and i get to open!!! it's gonna be fun! b/c the people that open are the best people! lol closers and high school people are LAZY and don't do a damn thing... (short story in like 1 minute) ok so i took my break about 6. i sit down at a table. the table next to me was really dirty b/c people are pigs sometimes. i got off my break (10 min) went back to work until i got off at 7. and u know what... the table was STILL dirty and the floors were too. it was a new guy. he just pretends to sweep! and the sauces went out in lobby b/c he didn't refill them. *sigh* anyways... it's time to go to school...

oh yeah... and that new guy, has been working for a week. and he doesn't even try to learn something new. it makes me angry b/c the job ISNT THAT HARD!

sometimes i just want to destroy something

Fri, 24 Feb 2006 02:15:47 GMT

i am just really angry. i just haven't been happy for the past two days. things have gotten worse in this house. my parents woke me up b/c they were arguing too loud, no my dad was arguing too loud that he woke me up and i couldn't go back to sleep. there's just alot of things going on that is messing me up. sometimes i get alittle bitter and just not in a good mood. i hate this and i hate my life at the moment. this may sound weird but i miss camp and CLI when everyone was happy and having fun. i had NOTHING to worry about. of course life wasn't made easy but there are moments where i feel that it has gotten so bad where i can't be strong, like right now. and i hate it. u know what my dad asked me? if they divorce who would i go with? i said i don't know (but of course my mom) and if it does happen it would hurt my dad so much. and i couldn't do that. but i'm almost 18 so it won't really matter. i don't think things will change that soon anyway... *sigh* i wish i could just run away. if it wasn't cold outside i would be outside right now where its peaceful... but anyways... wow i haven't updated in forever. i believe xanga is more of my personal entries than myspace... anyways... something really funny happened today at work. i don't think i have the need to say the story b/c when u read this, i would have already told u.

So i'm back... and life is back to normal

Sun, 15 Jan 2006 00:08:32 GMT

well... there's actually alot to say. i said most on myspace. i guess this is more of my personal site. there aren't many people on here and i don't think everyone checks this as much anymore but i don't care if they do b/c i could always block it. anyways... philippines... yeah it's different. it's kinda funny really. their whole family is like within 50ft of eachother unlike here where it could be anywhere. and their cousins could literally be a brother or sister since they live like 10 ft away and same age. but anyways... yeah they're poor. it shocked me when claire told me her salary was 200 pesos... a DAY. which is only $4!!! but then again everything is so cheap except for american brand foods. like m&m's and pringles etc. anyways... my dad tells me "they're so happy here. they don't have computers or entertainment to spend their lives on" it made me angry but i didn't want to start an argument. they are happy b/c their family, like i said, lives within 50ft of eachother. unlike here where they live an hour or across the country. that's not the only thing that makes me mad. it's when my dad tells me to stop being like bryan. (which he says acts just like adam) it's weird how we all 3 act the same...hmm wonder why?... anyways... while bryan and dad was yelling at eachother before left. bryan said something that actually got my attention. my dad was like "i'm not helping you with college if you keep smoking and drinking." "ok. smoking was my fault. but drinking is different. being at age 5 where you copy everything you see especially when a parent drinks." "oh blame me. hell with terry hayes." he stopped and went to the basement. which i don't understand when he does that. he simply avoids the argument when he has nothing to say and he has to get every word in... this is off subject but in the philippines for the first week of meeting everyone. my dad would hug my cousins (like 20-30) around the waist, squeeze the back of their neck (u know softly of course). it bothered bryan and i alot. and later he would tell me how sweet they are and pretty they are. it bothered me b/c i DIDNT CARE! (especially after hearing it like 4 times)... this entry is gettin kinda long. i do admit the trip was awesome! there are just moments that bothered me. my dad bothers me most of all...

i know this vacation will be hell

Sun, 18 Dec 2005 19:55:29 GMT

i know it will. bryan and dad were watching football and within 30 minutes they are fighting... *sigh* and we're leaving in 12 hours.

update (2:30 am) i was surprised to be waken up by my alarm. i thought i would be in a deep sleep but i wasn't. i'm effin freezing in this house now. 2 of my hoodies are packed and my mom packed the other one. and i can't find my other one. so i don't know what to wear to the airport which i'm sittin here with sweatpants, clogs, brescia t-shirt, freezing! i just got out of my bed. and i'm drinkin amp :) that lisa and christine left. anyways... my mom told me today that she might be gettin a calling card while we're up there. so who knows, i might call a couple times. time changes are difficult. philippines is 14 hours ahead. lol so, i'll be celebrating new years before u! i'll be waking up while u are gettin ready to sleep... right now i'm just thinkin of random things to say... amp is one good energy drink :) my phone rocks, i love it. the best feature is the drive on it! i can put pic from the computer on it and pics from the phone to the computer. not only that videos too! the two lisa vids are on the computer now :) well... i gtg. i hope everyone has an awesome christmas/new years break! i love you all!

So it's official...

Fri, 16 Dec 2005 01:12:11 GMT

LISA GOT THE STUFF!!! i'm so ready to get CRUNK! WOO!!! i'm ready to party! are you? just one more day of english, bio, and band and i'm OUTTA THERE!!! which makes me EXCITED!

i'm officially obsessed with Straylight Run and Plain White T's

Thu, 15 Dec 2005 00:38:52 GMT

thanks to ryan (from ncyc) who has Straylight Run - Existentialism on Prom Night on his myspace i'm now obsessed with straylight run.

3 songs by Straylight Run that i'm obsessed with.... Your Name Here (Sunrise Highway), Existentialisn on Prom Night, and Big Shot (Hands in the Sky).

Plain White T's has some good songs but one song that i'm really in love with is Hey There Delilah. a good one is A Lonely September.

p.s. i might get rid of my music player b/c music galore's sources shut down and no longer uses windows media player. so now they found a new source which only plays real media player which not everyone has...

I hate stress

Sun, 11 Dec 2005 23:33:40 GMT

friday, i was getting pretty stressed out about the biology test, the ACT, the darn pep band game, and about co-op. b/c of stress i have a damn canker sore in my mouth near my gum (very back left) it really hurts like a mo fo. at first i thought it was my gum but i looked and it's a damn canker sore... *sigh* i hate them. anyways... i just updated my xanga to complain lol...